Still Alive!

Today I am supposed to be dead... or at least dying.  Maybe it wouldn't have been until this evening, but it didn't happen.  Today is the last day of my 6 month prognosis.  The doctors at U of M originally gave me 6 months to live back in February.  That has since changed, but this day is a day that HB and I have been counting down for months now.  Dreading, terrified of, and trying to prolong.  But, as the song above suggests, I'm still alive.  STILL ALIVE.  

I woke up this morning with happy, sappy tears in my eyes.  I saw HB off to work, and then I made myself a celebratory pork chop for breakfast.  My buddy Wayne was coming down to get on the train, so I drank some coffee on the front porch with him, and then I dropped him off.  I went to Meijer to get some groceries for dinner tonight, and I just beamed.  I was just in a really happy mood.  I never smile when I go to the store, it's one of my least favorite things to do.  I got my stuff for lasagna tonight, and what I needed for a cake for desert.

By the time I was home, I had realized that my happiness couldn't overwhelm my energy level, and in the excitement I had worn myself out a bit.  Woops.  Tonight, I'm making lasagna for dinner (one of my favorite meals) and a baking a cake in honor of the event.  It will be great.  

HB and I had originally kicked around the idea of a party, but neither of us had the time or energy to plan it, and it was going to be difficult to find a place where people for all sorts of locations could come.  We were going to call it the "Ron beat Death Extravaganza".  So I guess that's what the cake and lasagna will be tonight.  Now I'm off to go get some tomatoes from the garden to start on lasagna.

A note on the song, it's the end credits song for a video game called "Portal".  The voice is the villain in the game who is a computer that is leading you through a laboratory trying to kill you (Think HAL from 2001: A Space Odyssey)